Have you ever trolled through instagram or pinterest and wondered just how these gorgeous mama's set up their home so quickly and what appears to be peacefully in these moves? If you haven't, WELL I HAVE. First mistake. But I'm going to hope and tell myself, that if I met them in person, maybe they'd tell me that behind the phone taking the picture of their organized neatly displayed move, is a messy bun with a face spotted with stress zits, and oversize clothes dressed for comfort. Yes, that's what I am going to try to imagine because, that is me.
Besides my temper tantrums and mommy time outs, we have had some gorgeous interactions. We found a home, but in our current season, who knows how long this will last. I started unpacking, repacking crap- err I mean, household goods that no longer flowed with the new home vibe, and staging and re-staging, then staging again all the rooms. I'm just a hot mess I tell you!
We set up shop in the middle home, and just look at that view! Our home faces the Mountains and it truly is breathtaking. You might wonder how I can be such a hot mess with a home like that- because I wonder. I guess I am just a hot mess. So find comfort if you are too. You aren't alone. Let's work on that, shall we?
And in all my craziness, I found myself desperate for friendship. I'm learning that I am a here and now kind of thinker. It takes all strength to try to process things for the long run. It's just not a natural trait. And how I wish friendship was an easy bing bang boom- lifelong friends that will stop anything for each other when the going gets tough. But I'm seeing that ain't the case. Friendships are developed and invested in. It takes risk, trial and error, investment (sometimes without return), trying new things, and ultimately trust in waiting (which I genuinely suck at). Since being here, I've met some great kind ladies who I am praying turn into great friends, and I've had a decent share of ladies who wont even make eye contact with me (I once went to a meet and greet and not one person responded to my hello or even acknowledged I was there- TRUE STORY).
So here I am. Here we are. New in Colorado and learning to adjust and trying to do it better than the day before.
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