Worth It For Each Other

Photo By Jess Hekman Photography

I was sitting across the table from my friend today as we made a little escape from the sickies in our home and ventured off in search of literature for an upcoming Bible Study we're hosting.  We were chatting about some of the goofy things are husbands do and some of the nitty-gritty  traits about who they are.

This past year probably has to be our hardest year on our marriage.  Both of us would tell you so if you ask.  It's been a tough challenge.  We're growing.  Risking new things.  Which is bringing out parts of us the other didn't know we had in them.  And for me, that lead to fear.  My husband was stepping up into a role that was made for him.  One I always knew he was made for, but as I saw him start to step into it, I feared I wasn't going to be invited along for the ride.  

And then of course, we were plunging ourselves smack dab into the wedding industry, which for the two of us, came even bigger risks.  We were constantly putting ourselves back into fantasy land of "what could be" or "what it should be".  We were seeing couples in newlywed stages and then comparing why we weren't there too.  

It was a challenge.  It still is a challenge.  Lots of hard nights wondering whether or not we were worth it for each other.  Wondering if we had anything left to fight for.  And yes, I took it more dramatic than he did.  But either way, it has been a harder year for both of us.

But we've been plowing through.  Making changes.  Removing some of the obstacles that have kept us from each other.  And from that, I'm seeing a man love me better than he has before.  

So our lives aren't all lavender fields with sunny skies.  We have hard days.  HARD DAYS.  We mess up.  We make stupid choices.  We don't always show it.  But if there is one message I want to be relayed when people look at my life, is that this messy scattered life, has been made WHOLE through Christ, and there's only Jesus to claim the honor of it all.